I'm not who I wish I "were", just old and stupid.
Not witty or clever.
A waste of time, wasted money, waste of space.
I'm wasted on pipe dreams, nostalgia shit-faced.
I'm not who I wish I were.
I'm just a cynic, devoid of honor, of purpose, of truth, of worth.
I'm wasted on pipe dreams, wasted on youth.
Save your soul.
Mine's rotten and cold.
You were right to say I'm selfish.
You were right to say I'm cruel.
You were right to say I'm greedy.
You were right and I'm a fool.
You were right to call me bastard.
You were right and I was wrong.
You were right to want to leave.
You were right all along.
Oh, the holy altar of self-destruction, I'll carry your word to my grave.
'Cause I am a preacher and I am a priest.
I'll spend the rest of my life on my knees.
credits
from No Beginnings, Just Ends,
released April 25, 2017
Additional vocals provided by Jordan Olsen.
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